Hand And Hand

I don't know how to write my emotions that are going through my head right now on this blog but I will try.
what I'm feeling at the moment was the inspiration for my poem. I know this blog isn't suppose to be about my little sob stories and what I feel, but I feel like I need to share it, and I hope I can write this well and if NI do write this well you will understand some of the things in my poem.
Anyway today my day was going good I had a feeling It was not gonna be good all day long but I said what the heck I cant just not go to school or something so I went on to school. So while I'm at my first class, my computer class it's fine (although I wasn't doing none of my work lol) and I get through that class fine and I come home and take a break, but it all started when I got to my next class. Now this is when everything went to hell and my day went down in crumbles. So I get to my next class, and I'm thinking this class is going to be fun today OK my teacher is not here for today and were not doing anything but reviewing for our test. So we all are paired up and the pairs were assigned a chapter, but me...being me I forgot what chapter I was assigned to and what made it worse that I did the wrong chapter I did the review sheet in the morning so I didn't really care so my partner asks me 'did you do the chapter, and he tells me chapter 9 and I'm shocked I tell him I did chapter 8 and everyone in the class room that's there looks at me and says omg Carolyn you did chapter 8 and so I just laugh or try to laugh it off which I do for everything and I know I've messed up but me thinking I can get out of any situation...or try, tried to get out of the situation. So I try to do chapter 9 as  fast as I can before the rest of the class shows up. So I end up finishing the couple of questions but they aren't the best I admit or they were good but they weren't written in depth. So I try to relax. But there is this woman in my class that I'm friends with but she is one of those people who make jokes but is mean too, and is SUCH an over achiever so she gets ti class and sits down and the leader asks her did she do her questions and she says yeah. Idk how she found out I didn't do mine and she looks at me and begins throwing the punches.I mean just harsh punches lol. She says omg I knew you weren't going to do them blah blah blah, so I just laugh it off once again but inside I'm feeling so shitty because I know the reason why I didn't do them was because I procrastinated and didn't care about it and that made me mad because I hate being the stupid one in the class. So the leader has everyone come together to give their answers to the chapters they were assigned and when it got to my chapter I was saying some things but not alot because my partner had better answers then me so I let him explain most of them, he had the page numbers and explained everything so then when he would get stuck the leader would say oh well if your partner would have did her questions she could have gave her answers, "lets ask her" " whats the answer Carolyn" and of course I try to give them the answers that I have and of course there not good enough for them and the over achiever has t say something with her cruel jokes too. So after they embarrassed me in front of the class I was just quite the rest of the time just thinking , and sad because everyone did such a good job and I was the only one who didn't. It made me so discouraged and sad but it also gave me strength to change  how I am and become an "over achiever" ... or maybe not an over achiever or do better than just good aim high.